Irresistible Bliss

I often feel like I have the most success with meditation when it has been awhile. What I mean by that is, when meditating on a regular basis I feel like I start just going through the motions. I don’t go deep under, I don’t stay nearly as focused. Don’t get me wrong, even when it has been months and I feel deeply engrossed in the moment, I am still thinking about how school is starting soon, and when my daughter will be home, and what if the doorbell rings because I am not getting up to get it. Or wondering if that email I heard come through a few minutes ago was telling me that my super awesome flat iron shipped. Or thinking about the anime the music I am listening to came from, and wondering why I didn’t put those other new songs we got on my tablet yet because they would have made a good addition to my yoga playlist. I don’t know if I will ever have a day when I can completely block everything out and just relax and breathe and be during meditation. But I do know that the more of an every once in awhile occasion I make it, the more I am able to block out, and the more absolutely blissful the moment becomes.